Single stay at home parenting...

Well, not really single, but going at it alone.. I don't know why I feel compelled to write this. Maybe because the boys were wired this morning and wanted me to set up a tent that was busted while the baby was crying. No one in my area has three kids 5 and under who aren't in real school yet. My neighbor has 3 kids but her oldest is in kindergarden. She probably gets it, but she has all girls. Staying at home is not so bad, I really do value what I am doing and I know the kids will see it when they are older. But having to go at it alone everyday with them gets tiring, especially with the two boys. I try not to let them watch too much TV or play games, but usually at some point I have to give in because I can't let them do a lot. I can't let them out alone, we are on a 2nd floor apt. I can't let them jump or run around, we have people below us and I know it bugs them, they have complained before (but we are on good terms, I get it) It has been rainy for 3 weeks so it is hard to take them all out anyway. I have to take the dog out in the morning secretly so the toddler doesn't follow me half naked into the rain.

I have to watch the toddler's every move so he doesn't ring the doorbell downstairs or start drinking out of the dog water.

My house is a mess all the time.

I have been sick recently so it is hard just to do the dishes.

I know this is just venting but boy...

The 3rd child tips the scale. I will tell people there is a HUGE difference from two to three, not one to two.

Do I think I am a bad mom? Sometimes, but I have to look at the big picture and I know I am doing the best I can with our situation, and at the end of the day they are fed, clothed, sometimes cleaned, and loved. Sometimes I see that as my big accomplishment, that I could do that without walking out.

I can't have ten minutes without a Mommy, Mommy.

I know I will appreciate it when they are older, I already see it with the oldest, I miss him being so little and it just goes fast.

The years go fast, but the days run long.

I think how I use to get waxed and hair highlighted and pedicures and facials and now I am lucky to shave my legs!

I know when this craziness dies down, I will have other craziness.

I know I am doing a fine job, but a vacation would be nice, but it won't happen..

NOW THE GOOD NEWS:

After the hubby leaves, we will have help! She will be coming in a few times a week so I can go to the gym (oh my!) or run errands without kiddos. I can make dinner in peace without kids running in there.

This is just myself writing with the flow...