Single stay at home parenting...

Well, not really single, but going at it alone.. I don't know why I feel compelled to write this. Maybe because the boys were wired this morning and wanted me to set up a tent that was busted while the baby was crying. No one in my area has three kids 5 and under who aren't in real school yet. My neighbor has 3 kids but her oldest is in kindergarden. She probably gets it, but she has all girls. Staying at home is not so bad, I really do value what I am doing and I know the kids will see it when they are older. But having to go at it alone everyday with them gets tiring, especially with the two boys. I try not to let them watch too much TV or play games, but usually at some point I have to give in because I can't let them do a lot. I can't let them out alone, we are on a 2nd floor apt. I can't let them jump or run around, we have people below us and I know it bugs them, they have complained before (but we are on good terms, I get it) It has been rainy for 3 weeks so it is hard to take them all out anyway. I have to take the dog out in the morning secretly so the toddler doesn't follow me half naked into the rain.

I have to watch the toddler's every move so he doesn't ring the doorbell downstairs or start drinking out of the dog water.

My house is a mess all the time.

I have been sick recently so it is hard just to do the dishes.

I know this is just venting but boy...

The 3rd child tips the scale. I will tell people there is a HUGE difference from two to three, not one to two.

Do I think I am a bad mom? Sometimes, but I have to look at the big picture and I know I am doing the best I can with our situation, and at the end of the day they are fed, clothed, sometimes cleaned, and loved. Sometimes I see that as my big accomplishment, that I could do that without walking out.

I can't have ten minutes without a Mommy, Mommy.

I know I will appreciate it when they are older, I already see it with the oldest, I miss him being so little and it just goes fast.

The years go fast, but the days run long.

I think how I use to get waxed and hair highlighted and pedicures and facials and now I am lucky to shave my legs!

I know when this craziness dies down, I will have other craziness.

I know I am doing a fine job, but a vacation would be nice, but it won't happen..

NOW THE GOOD NEWS:

After the hubby leaves, we will have help! She will be coming in a few times a week so I can go to the gym (oh my!) or run errands without kiddos. I can make dinner in peace without kids running in there.

This is just myself writing with the flow...

Been awhile

Well it has been awhile! And this morning started off with kids meeting me in bed requesting green eggs and ham. They helped with breakfast and in the middle of it baby woke up so I had go feed her. Then I finished breakfast and plated it, had to take the dog out. Then finally I got to have some coffee.

Hubby has been gone for two week, will be back soon, but then very busy before it is time for him to leave for awhile :-(

Some stories worth noting:

One Saturday Marek started the day off by getting into a can of tomato paste I had opened. So he finger painted all over the place. Shortly after that, he tried to shove scissors up his nose. He then found the sidewalk chalk and started eating the purple one. He then ate a banana. He then puked up purple chalky banana mess...wonderful.

We were outside playing and it was time to come in. Odin decides to be cool guy and run and jump over the swing...only his foot just misses and he totally eats it and get up and says, "It's okay, I'm ok!" I laughed very hard. IT was like watching someone slip on a banana peel.

This morning Marek got to put in the green food coloring. He then thought he could mix the eggs while in the pan and I had to yell because he was about to touch hot stove...

It had just rained but the sun came out so we went outside. Little did I know how much mud was out there and Marek was doing slip slides into it...

On a happy note: The boys are loving their sister. They love to talk to her and make her laugh which can be a big help when she is in her bouncy seat.